It's a wretched feeling, knowing that back then, the right decision you made is the reason you are in pain now.

I thought that after 2 years, it would be right to take it slow, consider each other before we gave it a shot.

Apparently, that few weeks was enough for you to change your mind. And all this time you never told me that my decision was what changed everything.

You said that if I had only accepted you that time, we wouldn't be stuck in this situation now.

That you would never harbour any thought of anyone else.

I believe you.

And it hurts to know that what I believed to be the right decision, is now stabbing me in the back, sticking its blade so deep I can feel it breaking through to the other side of me.

How ironic.

Apparently sometimes, being selfish matters more then doing the right thing.

I want to be selfish from now on.

But it won't change a thing, will it?

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